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i am damn sad from being "boyfriend-less" for over 2 months
it's like having a bf but yet not having a bf. :(
i haven't seen him for 2 whole weeks!!!!
since i came back from sydney
i haven't been seeing much of dumb dumb xiang, 1-2 times a week tops.
we only send a few sms' a day and if i'm lucky 1 or 2 short phone calls a week.
yea, i do hang out alot more with my friends now to keep myself occupied,
but i still feel lonely.
the loneliness of not seeing or hearing your other half.
i miss going on dates
i miss him pillioning me around
i miss slacking around at home watching tv while lying on his stomach
i miss having someone to complain to and nag at
i miss piggyback rides
i miss 1-2hour long telephone conversations
i miss holding hands, embraces and kisses
i miss his presence
i miss the smell of his adidas deodorant
i miss all day long texting
i miss having him around to listen to me talk about whatever under the sun i wanted to talk about
i miss someone worrying about where i am, wondering how i'm doing or what i've been doing.
i miss him making attempts to ask me out or calling me - i have to be the one to take initiatives now to ask or call but they always don't work out. o.0
i miss him bringing me to places i want to go to or to go satisfy my cravings
i miss him picking me up to go on dates or just to send me home after school or an outing
i miss going over to his place to look for him after school
i miss hugging him or being hugged by him to sleep
i miss a whole lot more other things..
and i see my friends around me with their other halves doing all those things
and i want that too!!
:(
i know he's been studying and all and now his exams have started
but that doesn't mean i don't still feel that missing feeling..
sxc, you don't know how it feels!!!!
it's a very very sad feeling!
like some kind of empty feeling.
i wish i could translate that feeling to you to make you understand
so that you know how your poor gf feels.
it's like i know you don't have time and i don't blame you BUT i still miss you very very much and feel kinda neglected and very very lonely?
there's is only so long you can close your eyes and ignore the deprivation til it hits you.
i think you have to go through it to understand it
because now you're probably thinking like "don't exaggerate la, it's not that bad what?! i'm still here and i still do msg you now and then though i selddom see you"
oh wells,
can't wait for friday when his exams FINALLY end.
he better make sure he makes true his promises that he'll make up for the neglect after his exams.
because his gf is super deprived of having a bf now,
his very emooooooooooooooooooooo gf.
SIGH~*
nicole<3
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