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Sunday, March 30, 2008, 1:45 PM
it's been 2 weeks since my last period..which means the next cycle is coming soon..
explains my emo-ness..
i bet by the time i hit menopause i'll drive myself crazy with my own moodswings..
o.0
anyways,
yesterday at bugis while waiting for =) who was in the toilet..
i was looking in at the displays in pazzion.. (shop was already closed)
then i thought to myself, next time when i get to work full-time,
i want to get myself shoes from pazzion every month.. (standard price of 69.90 cept for the more higher end stuff)
like some sort of goal..
i can actually already do that now with my part-time job,
but that'll burn a hole in my pay..
like one pair of shoes is equivalent to 10 hours of work..
that was another random post..
shall go ps2 or something..
=.=
nicole<3
1:06 PM
sians..emo-shit..
yesterday i couldn't even feel emo/sian although i was so disappointed..
i'm not even saying anything about nobody lending me a shoulder to lean on or cheering me up..
but yet i still got accussed of being sian thus making the mood sian..
i was already trying my best to feel better..
i still talked to you people..
of course i'm happy that i get to spend more time..
but do you really understand how i feel..?
i was actually very sad at the time..
how much i needed to hear something nice..
even a comforting touch would have been nice..
i don't ask for much..
but i got zilch.. so i dealed with it myself..
i'm already trying my best to feel happy..
but when you said that i was making you feel sian, it hurt..
like my efforts don't make a difference at all..
and fuck, my playlist is making me feel worse..
yes sera, i agree, certain songs are pretty emo..
i shall go be an emo-kid now listening to my emo-songs..
bye
nicole<3
12:46 PM
in reply to yc:i'm not disappointed over the fact that they wanted to go budget..
i do know that they went to thailand last week..
i just feel like, they made it such a big deal that i have to decide where to go..
but since they're on a budget they could have just said so..
i'd be more than happy to let them decide..
but dam is so far and out of the way for me..
at least if you guys met somewhere more central/accesible first then at least i could have some form of going there..
don't even know how i'll go home after that.. call a cab to the dam?
since people don't want to be troubled why should i go trouble them..?
even i will feel akward for having to make someone go out of their way to give me a ride home..
and ivan's msg was "we're going to dam, wanna come?"
the "wanna come" part was what got to me..
doesn't that sound weird to you..?
it was supposed to be for my birthday,
but that makes me feel like whether i come along or not doesn't matter..
like i wasn't invited all along and it was only then that he was asking me whether i want to join you guys..
sighs..
oh well..
doesn't matter anymore, it's already over..
nicole<3
12:47 AM
wholivesnearyou is scary..i created an account out of curiosity..
and within an hour i have messages from 8 random people - all male.. =.=
many in their late 20's or even 30's and living anywhere but hougang..
i am still receiving more as i am typing this..
F-R-E-A-K-Y..
and my main picture isn't even nice..
i was telling a friend whom i was talking to on msn at the time that luckily i'm not some chick/chio bu if not i'll be flooded.. o.0
anyways,
thank you so much boyfriend for being such a sweetie and getting me 2 ps2 controllers even though you're broke..
(actually he needs one so he can play on my ps2 cos mine's spoilt BUT he didn't need to get me a second one but he knew how much i wanted a transparent blue one)
so thank you very much again love..!! =D *hugs*
was supposed to meet the team cos they wanted to pass presents to me..
but things happened which really disappointed me..
one, being they were asking me where i wanted to go and all since it was for my b'day but in the end they settled for yishun dam cos they wanted to do something budget.. (hello, so far away, any considerations that i have no transport of my own..?)
two, it seemed like nobody wants to send me home..
only people who are capable of doing that are the ivan (too far for him), yc (too akward), esmond (he probably wasn't asked to join or might have been working), sharon+yifeng (weren't coming)..
plus they were making hints if my bf could send me home which is so bloody far for him and he has to sleep early cos he's booking in tmr..
by then i was super dulan/no mood that i decide no point in going..
so incovinient as well..
they suggested movies at amk hub/chilling at serangoon's liquid kitchen but i was so sian diao that i didn't even want to meet anymore.. (didn't even want to pick up the phone anymore when they called about the last change but the bf had to answer the call which made me more dulan)
now i know what happpened to esmond..
it is crucial that you have transport to be part of the team..
so probably i'll just wait til i have my own ride before joining them for outings again..
today i had a very random thought on the way home..
i wondered whether =) needs me as much as i need him..
not that he has done anything to make me think likewise..
just a general thought..
like in some relationships a couple may be together but one party or the other can do without the other..
it doesn't make that much of a big deal whether they're around or not, life is still the same..
would he feel lost without me..?
would it make a difference whether i were around or not..?
am i important enough that he'd devastated/not able to function if i weren't there anymore..?
silly thoughts they may be but still, they are intriguing..
birthday's up in less than a week..
damn fast..
hope my birthday wish comes.. *hint hint* pehhhhhhhhh pehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~*
still no idea what i want to do to celebrate.. (i am such a boring person)
but i feel like clubbing on that night or sat.. =X
i want a tatt of a rainbow and a unicorn.. XD
okay, getting tired now..
one last thing before i go..
happy 3rd monthsary boyfriend<3
i love you :)
nicole<3
Saturday, March 29, 2008, 1:27 PM
HOLLA..here's some love from hougang yo..!!
it's been a week since i've moved here.. :)
life's been so far so good..
still not very familiar with the neighbourhood but at least i know my way to hougang mall, the mrt station, ponggol cc and the bus interchange.. (all within 5 minutes walking distance)
now i have a huge-ass room all to myself plus my own toilet..
i'd probably never have to leave my room if the kitchen weren't downstairs.. =X
here's some pictures of the transition..
the serangoon flat looking empty and sad..
the banana truck that took 2 trips to bring all our furniture/boxes over to hougang..
my new room..
full length mirror in the wardrobe..
new additions to the room..
there's still a while lot of things that i have yet to take pictures of..
shall update this post later on..
for now, TIME FOR LUNCH..
muahahahahahahahahah~*
loves,
cole
nicole<3
Tuesday, March 25, 2008, 3:08 AM
i'm sorry..nicole<3
Monday, March 24, 2008, 11:06 PM
=(
nobody even noticed i went missing..even if it was just for 20-30 minutes,,
BAH~
nobody cares anyway..
i've never said it out before but,
partings are very important to me..
even if i saw you all day or i'll be seeing you again the next day..
i want all partings to be perfect and made on the right note..
cause you'll never know if one day, you'll regret not saying "i love you" or giving that hug or goodbye kiss..
it may seem just like small little things that aren't important..
but you'll never know what'll happen..
i want to make sure i tell you how much i love you rather than live with the regret that that wasn't the last thing i said to you..
doesn't matter if we're emo-ing or still fuming at each other..
it might seem stupid to some, but that's just me..
i was left all alone just like that..
though tears were welling up in my eyes..
you say that everything was settled..
but how can it be when the last things you said were "i don't feel like talking now, i'll msg you when i get home.."
my bad habit of walking off aimlessly by myself has returned..
i go walking around in the middle of the night alone cos i don't like to deal with the sadness alone in my room..
you said we should tell everything to each other..
and you say i always do not want to tell you things..
so why don't i know about this, that things are bothering you in camp..?
nicole<3
Saturday, March 22, 2008, 12:48 AM
my last night in serangoon..movers are coming in less than 12 hours time..
i sure am gonna miss this place..
i'll miss taking 133, 135 and 105 home..
i'll miss being so near to bishan and amk.. (thought hougang is actually pretty near as well)
i'll miss auntie jojo's indonesean food.. (will definately come back here to eat it)
i'll miss the quietness of the neighbourhood..
i'll miss having to take the lift up to go home..
i'll just miss the whole place since i've lived 20+ years here..
goodbye serangoon..
what i can look forward to is..
I LIVE 5 MINUTES AWAY FROM A SHOPPING CENTER/MRT STATION..!!!!
wind will actually be able to come into my room.. =X
i have my own toilet..
i actually have to climb up stairs to get to my room.. =D (which i will probably dread in the future)
i can't think of anymore at the moment..
moving means i'm a step closer to getting my bike.. (i digress for a moment)
because when the transferral of this serangoon flat is done..
dad will have the moolahs to give me to pay for the bike..
muahahahahahahahaha~*
speaking bout bikes, yc said he changed to a haya..
which i still DO NOT believe though the story he told seemed very believable..
next meetup with the team will tell.. o.0
back to topic..
3/4 of all the boxes being moved to hougang are my stuff..
like OMFG..
how the hell is all that gonna fit into my room..??
and how did i accumulate so much stuff..??
o.0
i already have plans for my new room..
i want..
- a mini refrigerator
- my own personal shoe rack
- pinwheels on my windows
- nice lamp for night time
- huge ass pillows for sitting on the floor
- pretty shower curtains for my bathroom
- there's still many more but those are akan datang for now.. =)
okay, i should get to sleep now..
early morning tomorrow to pack the really last minute stuff before the movers come..
goodnight~*
i love you bf.. <3
nicole<3
Friday, March 21, 2008, 12:45 AM
it's 2 weeks from the big TWO-ONE..!! =Dand i'm moving tomorrow (sat)..
only thing left's to get my ride..
=D
nicole<3
Tuesday, March 18, 2008, 11:31 PM
busy busy lately..many things going on..
either i'm not home or i get home late and i'm too tired to blog..
many photos to show..
but too lazy to upload..
HAH..
- worked at the international furniture fair @ the expo from the 9th-12th march (saw yc's ex/might-be-current gf at the mrt station while going home on the first day - talk about coincidences)
- mambo night @ zouk on the 12th - music SUCKED, long island tea is SUCKY and esmond SUCKSSSSSSSS at drinking cause he got drunk and sat on my camera so now 3/4 of the lcd display's spoilt =(
- went on a last minute 4d 3n trip to cameron highlands and KL with sera and family - many people mistook me and sera for sisters. HAH. and hardly anyone even knew i was out of the country. =X
- step up 2 is HOT!! (revives my wanting to learn hip-hop >.<)
- the boyfriend has been such a sweetheart giving me surprises lately <3>
- i bought the prettiest rainbow babydoll top from topshop today =D (shopping with esmond is like shopping with a girl, he even smells body lotions for me. LOL)
- I WANT OLD-SKOOL CONVERSE SHOES
(i wear specs now.... NOT!)
alrights, that's all for now..
tata~*
love,
cole
nicole<3
Tuesday, March 11, 2008, 8:12 PM
damn-ass tired..seriously short-handed today...
i was the fugging kopi-soh, canteen auntie, cleaner, ah-neh washer and delivery girl..
the company should pay me for at least 2-3 people's jobs.. -___________-"
and some punk wanted to get to know me and got my colleague to pass me a namecard with his name and number written on it.. o.0
said punk is SHORTER than me.. *kua kua kua*
waiting for the bf now..
we were supposed to do dinner but he got stuck in jb cos of the rain..
no idea where he is now..
something always has to come up on days we plan something on..
BAH~*
moving house in less than 2 weeks time..
and i've only packed 2 boxes worth of stuff so far..
*arghs*
can't bear to leave serangoon..
I LOVE THIS PLACE ALTHOUGH IT IS SO DAMN BORING AND THERE'S NO SHOPPING CENTERS AROUND..
aights,
shall just continue to stone right now..
very random and meaningless post.. o.0
nicole<3
Monday, March 10, 2008, 12:19 AM
haven't been updating this space for some time..cos..
there's nothing much to update about..
life still revolves around work, bumming @ home, going out with sera and of course the boyfriend..
gonna be busy working at the expo these few days, today being day 1..
and for the record, i have absolutely no affinity (yuen fen) with coffee machines..
i think it's karma for disliking coffee so much and being a tea person..
i always end up at the kopi-soh and machines always break down on me..
-________________________________-"
i feel numb at the moment..
i don't like confrontations when i'm pms-ing..
i tend to get over-emo..
it seems like i'm becoming a colder person..
i'm becoming more emotionless..
feelings hidden behind a blank facade..
either that or my motor skills are failing me and i have problems interacting and reacting to other people.. (okay, so that's just bullshit)
but still..
i rather spend happy time together rather than "discussion time"..
it just ain't the same..
can it be that wrong to be greedy and always wanting more..??
the big two-one is coming..
25 more days to go..
while people have kickass birthday bashes at chalets/clubs/resturants/beaches/ktv longues,
goddamn boring people like me have nothing in mind to do on the date..
birthdays are always spent having simple meals with friends/loved ones..
there's nothing that i really want this year..
maybe something different would be to spend it out of singapore..?
some beautiful beach resort at night..
and i still want my birthday cake with a huge-ass rainbow on it.. =X
HAH..
i should do something special/wild to mark this birthday..
you only turn 21 once in your lifetime.. (actually that happens every year, but yea after the 21st the more birthdays that come the more you dread it cos you're getting OLDDDDDDDDDDDDD)
nicole<3
Monday, March 03, 2008, 11:51 PM
sigh..feeling very down right now..
yet nobody to seek comfort in..
=(
definately not my day..
nicole<3
1:46 AM
camwhoring before leaving the house..as always..
chris ended up joining me and sera for dinner and shopping @ bugis..
our driver..
he says he wants to start collecting taxi fare from us.. -_________-"
since he didn't know how to get to bugis..
he used the gps system in the car..
which wasn't all that useful since it lagged and gave inaccurate instructions to turn..
first stop was to fill our hungry stomachs with FOOD..
katong laksa from the stall outside of OG..
$3.50 per bowl..
goodstuff though not very filling..
me and sera have BIG appetites.. =X
miss sera..
chrissy-poo
ME
followed by shopping @ bugis village..
poor chris had to wait, wait and wait while we tried on pretty shoes..
poorthing..
headed back to bugis junction to chill after..
we initially wanted to have this..
beard papa's ice-cream mochis..
unfortunately all the more appetizing flavours were sold out..
so we settled for icecream at venezia..
chris' treat.. =D
i chose butterscotch..
sera chose crunchy nut..
chris chose some chocolate flavour.. (as much as i love chocolates, i don't like choc ice-cream.. weird right?)
headed home after that..
was talking to the bf on the phone while walking to the bus stop and waiting for the bus..
by the time 133 came his phone was low batt..
so i complained about having nothing to do on the bus since i didn't bring my psp along..
bf suggested i d/l e-buddy..
i was like.. "i can use ebuddy on my phone..??" (noobs like me thought only pda phones could)
bf was like.. "most new phones can.." and he proceeded to tell me the webbie and the option to choose..
and wad'ya know..
I CAN CHAT ON MSN USING MY HANDPHONE..
HOW COOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL IS THAT..!!!! (so i'm OUTDATED, sue me.. =P)
today's shopping trip didn't turn out as well as i'd hope..
i imagined i would be lugging 4-5 pairs of shoes home..
NEXT TIME i will.. (in a damn shoe-shopping mood now)
i still need more shoes in white/black to match with anything and everything in my wardrobe..
i'd been eyeing this pair for a very very long time..
i fell in love with the colour the very first time i saw it in dec when i was shopping with wins..
tried it on then and decided that size 40 is just too small.. (i'm a size 41-42)
but every subsequent time i passed by the shop after that day, i'd be eyeing them..
so eventually i decided that they were just too pretty to pass on.. =X
i'm attracted to red stuff, i can't help it..
i'm aries.. =P
2 pairs of faux lashes..
one super doll-like.. the other glittery glam.. =)
last but not least..
sexy siren after she's been pimped.. HAH
bf, i miss you..
if only there was more time..
goodnight earthlings..
work at 7.45am tomorrow.. BAH~*
nicole<3
Sunday, March 02, 2008, 1:17 PM
picture time..
busy yet at the same time not that busy week..other than filming i'm practially slacking away, meeting sera or with the bf..
though the amount of time i've spent with the bf this week barely even adds up to a day..
=(
hurry up and get caught you terrorist bugger you.. o.0
went to this chill out place called timbre with the bf, aaron & edrick..
it's near fort canning park..
no pictures though cos i know my phone's night mode sucks and it's pretty dark there..
tried pina colada for the first time..
i still prefer having "sex on the beach".. *pun intended*
HAH..
anyway, the ambiance of the place is really nice and the band that was playing really ROCKS..
the lead singer's voice was effing nice..
if only sx could sing like that for me.. (just kidding bf! =P)
recently, i've been reminded of the things i've always been wanting to learn or do..
like learning to play the guitar properly..
to dance latin/hiphop styles..
sing like a star..
if i actually had a choice to be in any profession that i can..
my dream would be something glam..
be a live gig preformer..?
singer/dancer..? (ala pcd style)
a runway/fashion model..
BIG DREAMS..
none of which are do-able but who says a girl can't dream right..? =P
maybe i can take lessons at the community center or join an aerobic dance class or something..?
LMAO~*
anyway, heading out to bugis village later with my part-time girlfriend a.k.a sera for retail theraphy later..
i swear i see her more than i see sx.. =X
pretty shoes and faux lashes here i come..!!
so before i go get ready, let me entertain you with photos from sexy siren.. (my current nickname for my phone cos it's red and hawtttttttttt.. =P )
the indoor/night shots aren't very fantastic as you can see.. o.0
- cole
nicole<3
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