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Saturday, January 31, 2009, 12:12 AM

good 'ol retail theraphy

i am so so so bored,
that i am making multiple entries in one night.
o.0

i've been shopping ALOT lately.
both online and offline.
fedora hats, high waist belts, tops ranging from colourful stripes to dark cheong sums, leather and shiny black leggings, red checkered jeans, bandage skirts etc etc
and i still want more!
i want more belts, hot pink-red lippie from christian dior (thanks to winnie for making me fall in love with hers), lime green nail polish from skinfood..
there's still alot i need to get for aussie too.
yikes~*

and my 20gb hardrive from microsoft has arrived!
hoorah hoorah.
:)

tadah!

steamboat and "love matters" with my boys at suntec/marina square.

the 3 boys.

everytime we go out the sitting arrangement is the same.
yiming and zhimin on one side,

while me and jinjie on the other.
guess it's to do with our birthdays.
2 dec babies and 2 april babies so got to group together.
o.0

we all just happened to wear white!! MO QI~*

i like this shot.
the yellow background makes it look vintage-like.

cole~*

celebrating pui's birthday at arena

free-flow lychee martinis and sex on the beach for ladies' night.
i think i had like 8-9 glasses of lychee and 1-2 glasses of sex.
:X

tongue studs. :)

I LOVE WINNIE'S LIPPY COLOUR!
that's the one that i want to get. :X

our favourite lesbian kiss poses.
check out the mark winnie left on my face!

aren't the flames so pretty?

the birthday girl had a hell lotta this.
3 waterfalls, many glasses of other drinks and she was still standing.
POWER~*

lastly,

KL cny pictures!!

family photos.
(family photos seem to get smaller and smaller every year)

brandon and me.
we used to be sidekicks back during our childhood days.
we'd play nonstop every cny be it with computer games, toy dinosaurs, make believe aliens etc etc.

me and kat.
my funky cousin who looks kinda angmoh mix and has the prettiest skin.

i realize my dress looks really really short here.
:X

mum mum time!!

picture taken of my cousin's screen
me and my cousins went to a lanshop and played left4dead
even in KL i get to play left4dead.
cool right?
haha~*

check out the amount of food can?

we celebrated my ah ma's chinese b'day.
she's 80 over years old and still going strong.
:)

remember earlier i mentioned our group photos are getting smaller and smaller?
that's cos full strength should look like this.
this photo is really old, my mum was still part of the family back then.
can you spot me?
haha

one last thing for today,
even with all the bad luck and irritation i had today
one good thing did happen!!
i finally got my hands on this top that i was searching high and low for.
imagine i was so obsessed with it that i was refreshing the sgflea page every few minutes and i did this for a few days.
it might be something really ordinary but for some reason i really really like it so much.
:X

dark grey cheong sum top!!
i don't have a picture of me wearing it so here's the model from the blogshop.
it's classy, the colour is not too cheena that it can be worn for any occassion
and they are not doing backorders for this colour (they have it in light grey and light pink too)
which means it's not that common
heh heh heh :X

okay, maybe i'm just making myself feel good about my purchase.
but still,
it's one piece that makes me really really really happy to own!
especially the sense of achievement of actually finding it and getting it cos hardly anybody was selling their pieces the whole time i was looking.
yayness!

only one phrase can explain the happy happy feeling i'm having:

"DARK GREY CHEONG SUM TOP, HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!"
(hardo-gay style)

(i know, i'm going crazy over a top, so sue me! :p )

nicole<3

Friday, January 30, 2009, 11:54 PM

i miss you like crazy

i miss my boyfriend.

we haven't had a proper long conversation for like a week plus.
especially since he was busy last week and i went to KL
and the day i came back (tue), was the same day he left for m'sia.
what made matters worse was that he was supposed to pick us up from harbour front using my dad's car
but my dad's car wouldn't start.
so time was wasted waiting for servicemen and tow trucks.
in the end, what should have been 2-3 hours ended up more like 20minutes alone together.

and he's so busy over there in m'sia what with him being the best man at his cousin's wedding.
thankfully he's finally coming back tomorrow night,
but i'll only get to see him on sunday.
SIGH!

then we have 6 days before i fly off to sydney for 3 weeks.
DOUBLE SIGH!!

okay,
i shall quit whining already.

HAPPY 13TH MONTHSARY SUGAR<3
well, at least the last few minutes of it.
heh~*

nicole<3

6:37 PM

one of my bestie's is out of love,
and has been pretty down lately.
hope she cheers up soon.

the emo-ness has been making her kinda weird.
sometimes she asks us out but doesn't have anywhere in mind to go,
but doesn't really take to our suggestions
then when we finally decide on something she goes m.i.a and doesn't even say if we're still going out or decides she doesn't want to go out at all.
or we make plans for the next day, yet when the next day comes i don't hear from her at all.
it kinda makes it abit hard for me and our other friend.
cos we don't know what to do to make her happy cos it seems like she herself is confused on what she wants.

today i realized it's cos she went out with other friends instead.

babe, don't be so emo!!
you were still alright before,
don't let the pms bring you down.
and please please when we discuss to go out don't ps halfway.
when you really want to go out let us know okay?
we have a proper meetup!
we're here for you,
but you have to help us help you.

loves and hugs.

nicole<3

5:57 PM

my non-existent balls dropped earlier when i nearly got knocked down by this fucker.
asshole was coming out from a smaller road
yet didn't give way to me when i was still accelerating.
everything happened so fast,
horned and squeezed into the small space between the car and the curb in order to avoid him.

KNNBCCB!!!!

should have given him the middle finger
but i was too stunned
all i could manage was a glare to the back
and the fucker gave a paiseh hand sign.

and then minutes later i see another fucker's blue/light-blue fairings on somebody elses' super 4.
bloody unluckily swuay day.

SHEESH~*

nicole<3

Thursday, January 29, 2009, 1:19 AM

things to do with dumb dumb xiang before i fly off to aussie..

a day at the singapore zoo
watch bride wars
a romantic stroll at pasir ris beach
overnight stayovers
cheapo steamboat meal
shopping
spend quality time :)

one more day to our 13th monthsary.
:D

nicole<3

Saturday, January 24, 2009, 4:07 AM

before i go to sleep..

me with my 3 babies - presents from the bf for xmas, new year and our 1 year anniversary

me,

and me,

me again,

again,

and again

and lastly,
me and my "BAOS".
imma gonna get myself a BAOjob. :)

i am so full of MYSELF. :p
nights~*

nicole<3

Tuesday, January 20, 2009, 11:34 PM

i was complaining to the bf why he takes 27093478464868338568565 years to write me one wall post on facebook.

SX says (10:54 PM):
okay i will think of one everyweek
SX says (10:54 PM):
but
SX says (10:54 PM):
i really love u
SX says (10:54 PM):
my heart loves u

bf, see ar, i got proof right here.
so i'm expecting one every week from now okay.
:p

nicole<3

11:27 PM

very redundent.

happy happy happy,
i finally ordered a 20gb hardrive for my xbox 360,
soon i'll be able to download stuff online and play my games without any hiccups due to lags or hangs!
:D

nicole<3

Monday, January 19, 2009, 5:38 AM

thank you to all of you who were concerned over my emo posts and msn nicks
and were trying to cheer me up
i appreciate it alot.
hugs for all of you :)

i feel heaps better today.
because i shopped, i got to eat steamboat and played left4dead lan. :D

time really flies,
one week from now i'll be in KL for cny,
and 2 weeks from now i'll be in sydney.
can't wait to shop, shop and shop like no tomorrow.
heh heh heh.

aights, time to sleep now
majulah singapura's gonna play soon on tv.
tata~*

nicole<3

Sunday, January 18, 2009, 1:34 AM

just damn sian.
always saying that we'll do this do that, make plans and all, expectations set
yet they never materialize only to leave disappointment in its trail.

and it's worse that you let your lack of sleep cloud your judgment and make the most atrocious of accusations
and then let your temper just rain on me in poisoned knife-edged raindrops.
and i cannot do anything but just suck it up.
cause if i argue back and point our your mistake - i'm at fault
but if i just let you have your way - i'm still at fault.
so i keep quiet, i die from the knife wounds
i make you realize your mistake, you apologize but you are bueh song that you are wrong, i die from the poison left behind even though the knives are removed.

i really don't understand what's your problem.
my fault - you get angry
your own fault, i explain why you're at fault (could be misunderstanding or just fucked up judgement), you will apologize but still be angry at me in the end (WTF right?).
so like you wrongly accuse me yet you still wanna be angry in the end.
low blow to me right?
sigh.
it's always like that
the same fucking pattern everytime
is it the fucking male ego that makes him like that?

i am still fucking sian even though i have ranted so fucking much
ARGHS!!

nicole<3

12:42 AM

i'm feeling one of my all time lows today.
we had a fight today and things got pretty bad
and now i'm left to mourn over a weekend that never happened.

i just don't know what i did to deserve the treatment i got today.
i was on my best behaviour and made sure i was good.
i woke up early to help him pay his road tax
i was okay with it that he had to meet his friend today (because he only remembered today that he promised his friend to accompany him for something) although we'd already made plans
i didn't complain or get angry that the time we had left for ourselves was ticking away as we accompanied his friend.
finally we had alone time and he just had to spoil things.

for those of you who know me really well - i can name melvina, sera, chris
you'd know that sometimes i go into my stoning moods when i'm bored or i have nothing to do.
and when i stone i really stone and it takes awhile for me to get out of these stoning moods.
i can't explain why i do that, i just do.
as long as i am not being rude, sarcastic, difficult or offending anyone, i do not feel that there is anything wrong with my stoning moods.
plus we were in the shoe section of the men's department of a department store for a long time and i was very very hungry.
i did talk to them, answered when questions were asked, made jokes or remarks here and there.
time and again he asked me why i looked so sian, i replied him exactly the truth, "i'm stoning already"

everything seemed fine after that.
friend bought something, we went for dinner.
then after dinner when we were finally alone,
he decides that he is irritated by my stoning and straightaway asks me why i was showing an attitude.
so fucking upset.
today was perfectly fine, i put on my best behavior, there were things i could have been unhappy with today but i didn't, yet he accuses me of showing an attitude.
and thus spoiling the little bit of time we had left.

we had our fri and sat all planned out together. (i only saw him these 2 days this week)
and we could only meet at 6ish cos he was working til 6pm both days/
fri was to go to his place and watch movies we were supposed to watch long ago
and sat was to go over to mine and cook pancakes together.
but you know what?
none of that happened at all.
on fri he wanted to do something else so i didn't say anything and just let him be happy.
so i was really hoping for sat to work out.
but he just had to pick a fight at 9pm when we were finally alone and we had only an hour or so left togeher.

so we argued and argued til he finally apologized.
we were at the carpark below his block
i said i needed some time to calm down before i went back cos i didn;t want to cry on the way home on the bus/taxi/at home.
so i asked him to go up and sleep first if he was tired cos the fact was he was tired which brought on his temper which started the fight and i didn't know what time i would be okay.
and you know what, he fucking gets angry at me for saying that.
he said i was making things difficult for him and why would i say something so absurd as that since i should know he won't leave me alone.

it really fucking sucks when you have good intentions
and yet the other person gets angry with your for that.
i mean you rather i say i want you to stay here with me til the wee hours of the night, don;t care how tired you are you must stay?
and you made it very clear you were tired and wanted to sleep?
was i wrong to think about you?
i told him my reasons for saying it and he seems to accept it.
yet minutes later he suddenly gets angry again for no fucking reason and throws his temper and refuses to talk.

tell me,
how is a girl who did so much for you today take that crap?
i was already so upset and yet you had to make things worse and make me angry as well.
so much that i said something that hurt.
i said that he was being no different than yc.

yes, i admit that was harsh and i said it in a fit of anger.
but you really were becoming like him.
shouting at me even when there were people around, getting angry for no apparent reason, giving me the cold treatment after getting angry.
you said you would never be like him.
so can you blame me for feeling hurt that you were starting to do the same things as he did?

i don;t know what is this world becoming to
such a fight can sprawl out over me stoning.
what is fucking wrong with stoning?
i had no evil intentions at all. i just stoned.
and things could have just been avoided.
since it was already nearing the end of the day and he knows about my stoning. i have explained it many many many times and i believe any tom dick or harry can see that i was purely stoning no attitude no anger no rudeness.
i really wonder why he couldn't just have let it go.
why must he get irritated and pick a fight with me?
why couldn't we just enjoy the last of our weekend.
why didn't he just let me be happy since whatever we planned together he never followed through.
why must you hurt me and in turn make me hurt you?

so fucking pissed and upset right now.

nicole<3

Sunday, January 11, 2009, 8:44 PM

idiot's guide to cooking maggi asam laksaaaa~*

first you wait for the water to boil.